Rubén Blades Chica Plastica con letra

I'm really quite busy, get off of my cloud!

I seriously need your help writing a defense to the gross invasion of my privacy and harassment evident in that complaint. The complaint in itself proves criminal activity and distortions that lead to an alcoholic boyfriend who tried to lure me into a fear-based sex/acid trip cult in the fields. I thought the discussion was over when he said, "I give up, you have too much faith". It can't be considered a professional consultation when she asked me to talk to him. My last teaching gig paid 40$/hour and I didn't receive a dime! They keep looking at me funny because I'm not ranting like the loony I have every right to be. Zen master? Yeah, a little. I've not been tested for that. I'm a Reiki-do master. Baptized once in the Roman Catholic Church and that's all it took. I'm mundane like that. What pisses me off is not what they do to me, it's how they inflict this evil on people who have no idea they're being victimized. I ask around for answers and people tell me, "Oh yeah, it sux, but that's how they do" I'd explained things repeatedly and gave it my best effort to get along with morons who can't see the real pain we endure on the regular...and they call it weird we don't give them the pleasure of seeing the pain. Yes....if you see me, I am in a LOT of pain...but without their little lame cult of profound ignorance, I've gotten strong enough to walk....on my own. It was so outlandish, I thought it was related to my very public work / holiday snipe hunt I posted awhile back. They knew I wanted to bring my daughter here and I can't believe they would go this far after the hell they tried to put me through....and failed miserably to shake my faith. I'm a Reiki master who was raised and educated in the Roman Catholic Church. Sacred Heart, just like Lady Ga-Ga. Dad was a Grand Knight and I was raised on the Douahy Rheims version. As a Reiki master, I'm actually legally entitled to identify myself as "Reverend Andrea Maria Monica Blackwell" and have educational legacy of achievements in the family to add "esquire" to the end of it. And if Dad was the "Senior Systems Analyst Manager" at NSA from when he was in the Air Force after being a corpsman who didn't want to birth no mo' babies.... and watched me like a hawk while I chewed up every computer I got my hands on.... and phished him for phishing me on the high school network, you get the idea why I like to shut up about being the first at things until it's to my advantage to do so. I'm an artist, I'm no threat to anybody just because I'm a little weird...and talented.....agnostic...roadside philosopher. I'm really quite happy being Nobody N. Particular...but I'm a bit pissed to know how long we've been piddled on from a very high height. How high? Pretty darned! Yeah, so your next door neighbor is some kind of bona-fide Einstein uber genius, trying to rebuild a life after decades of so much STooPID! For this I must have a sense of humor, but this is went too far. In trying to intimidate me, they've racked up quite a list of federal offenses, if I'm not mistaken. The bogglement is how to pursue it with the least amount of damage ...this flaming cascade set my work back ......over a year because the big even I was working towards was the VWBPE conference. All I needed was some kind of assistant to help me keep my bills and stuff while I regained my strength. I've been rebuilding my life on what people dismissed as a game or worse, for pron. I received no pay for the counseling time I offered for Rachel's alcoholic boyfriend. Somewhere along the day, he forgot he was on an interview to help her re-arrange my apartment and tried to dismiss my life's work as nothing due to his profound ignorance and fear-based conspiracy beliefs that I should join his no-faith cult on some field and be his "family". He sounded just like some wanna be Manson...worse than I'd seen in a very long while, but have smacked around on the social networks. He's not online, so he knows nothing about how we laugh our asses off at ignorant cowards like him. Time has always been the enemy of brilliant minds simply because people lack the dedication to work out a serious problem to it's actual beneficial conclusion. Don't ask me to fix a problem if you don't want it fixed. Lying about the problem when too many are still around to dispute it is another lose-lose game because every generation is the "I told you so", generation. How is this MY fault we break down because people allow themselves to repeat the same stupid mistakes or implement temporary fixes to cash in on re-fixing later? In other words, if you don't have time to do it right, when will you have time to fix it later? I've heard that load of crap from "anarchists" before. And he wasted most of my day trying to push his jacked up beliefs and I told him to go stick it on his skateboard, I have no interest and no I don't want people who hate what I'm all about in my home when they quit without hardly trying. I had a home in Georgia and lost it after getting laid off from HP UNIX Networking. My immediate family have cut me out of everything because they've got theirs, and lied about everything they promised to save for me. They've left nothing from the family estate as they promised....they keep saying, "aim HIGHER!" and they won't even open a door to me....a safe place to think and study. I'm told to "get over it". This is nothing new to the war economy, baby boom, baby bust cycle of stupid the country has been running on, while dropping the bar on everything we need to truly thrive. You were there when they argued "quality over quantity.", and "tangible intangibles". Who are they, who gave up and crawled into a beer can to put themselves above me or what I'm trying to accomplish when I'm doing the best I can to adjust to this new town? It took me 30 years to get to the west coast and see people who really have the mind for this work. I've actually been told to use my gifts for politics! NO! I'm happy being support team. I got very photogenic relatives who want that kind of life and I fully enjoy doing my part to help them as a scout, observer and political wonk. They were separated from me because I'm a loser. It's been a painfully stressful to think all of this goes back to retaliation for not hiring people to arrange my personal space because they decided I was into dark magic for the colors and wood in my apartment! She was upset because I told her his ignorance was dangerous to her and the email exchange was copied to Richard Marcus who helps suicidal people. He mistook me for that, but believe me, I'm NOT in that category. I've been through all of that with the VA and my disability is PTSD from so many unfair crashes in my life. Now that I'm here where my work is appreciated, I have everything to live for! Genius is a fact, not an opinion. I couldn't do this work without the foundation you nerds laid out before me and I say that with great respect as a geek who uses it to learn and teach. Talking to you made me realize how much you suffer and understand more than you probably realize. No, I'm not saying I understand exactly what you've been through as that would be arrogant. I'm saying that we have a way of analytical thinking that isn't understood by those trying to cure us of things they don't understand. The downshift is excruciatingly stressful. Add our customer service training and we are prone to empathy and doing what we can to work things out. It comes from very deep roots, built on the philosophy of a global truth. I come from a culture of excellence. How is it my fault ignorant people can't see that I have an extremely high threshold for pain? This is not new to me, but it is a profound absurdity that I have to defend myself from it again and again and yet again. My notes are brainstorm dumps and snarks people seem to connect with. So if you're still not put off by my ramblings, (oddly, the name of the Levittown home I grew up in...oh the irony) I hope your friend at the VA can help while I go through the BS I have to go through to fight this stupid thing. I'm used to people turning up their TVs to drown out noises from very thin walls and floors. Most of the complaints were redacted and twisted accounts of when I was talking to Rose about how to NOT bother the neighbors and what rights I have in the matter. Also, about safety regulations we've discussed that are actually worse or not really up to par when it comes to kids in a school/family environment. Recently, I was out back taking pictures as we did in girl scouts...and wrote or drew stories about what we saw in nature. As I was doing so, I picked up some sharp screws and followed the path where it cuts through to the mall. It crossed the "common area" mark. Someone called the office because they saw me taking a picture of a bluebird and complained it appeared I was up to something weird. Good Grief! I was thinking about activities kids could enjoy with their folks and this is how twisted minds translate it? Are other neighbors responding to the crazy notes they've been hanging on the door for days without my notice? Since I only left for supplies while I recovered from what the Golden Girls called "Chronic fatigue syndrome"? Now it's rolled into the blanket category "Fibro". I also have arthritis, edema issues and it's taken a very long time to get the legal prescription to treat it. As you see, I can walk again. I couldn't manage my own groceries last year and this mess has my fibro and tinnitus and yanking my chain while I'm getting so much done. To edit later or never, I'm sick of it....

The Judges Gave Them No Chance Because Of Who She Was... And Then OMG!

The Judges Gave Them No Chance Because Of Who She Was... And Then OMG!

You're My Honeybunch, Sugarplum...

Comfort song from the tech support pits.

Travel log...Steam Punk RAWKS!

-=-===-==-=-=-=-=---=-=-=-=-=-=--=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- blink, blink, blink Andrea here, empathizing and not correcting any spelling. Some mistakes aren't really mistakes. I was taught to let the words flow and leave well-enough alone. I still believe the 5th element is AI = LOVE in several languages and followed in our telecommunications. The three laws of robotics is a truth built on a great wisdom. Deal with the irony and the paradox. Moving right along... I've joked that Jesus was a great hippie who lived outside of Cairo and Jerusalem was it's suburb. If GOD says her heart is pure, who is to question that? I spent quite a bit of time learning from my "betters". I spent a LOT of time listening to my child and paying attention to her needs. SHE chose ME to raise her and many great evils have been committed out of ignorance and greed for the love we shared. Why not just learn how to talk with your kids for comprehension? Interact! Find out what tickles them and NEVER force the issue! "Where you there when they crucified my lord?" I've seen it many times. My Dad was insulted in front of my face, more times than I can count. He was bound by his vows to break the promises he made to us. But he was cheated long before that. There is no honor in perpetuating lies upon lies. This place is AMAZING! There's so much love in it. And I agree, music/art communicate where words and methods fail. I've much experience in Quality Assurance and it apparently goes back to recognizing what that is. The Steampunk age showed us how different cultures got together and gave their best efforts in style and function, making it a joy to live, work and play. It is a well-known fact. Lowering the bar on intelligence blows it for us all, when our natural instinct is to do our best for our families and communities by extension. One does not monopolize the infinite And it is a HUGE mistake to judge a book by its cover. It's not an issue until one "makes it so". The stupid question..... well, stupid is as stupid does and whatnot... Ask me no questions, I'll tell you know lies, most certainly applies. in the face of a cheater. And I have a REALLY big thumb, it seems. People have said "I'm doing it wrong" so many times I could scream. The primal "yelp" has its benefits, but in my experience, people have entirely too much intolerance over the many natural processes people go through in order to comfort themselves and the cures this country forces us to use is WORSE than the CURE! This is not news by a very long shot! To my knowledge, I've not met this person, but I certainly can empathize and yeah, we're not real impressed with grammar nutzis. I do hope I meet Vbinnia Radek because this place is FANTABULOUS! "You are what you do", most certainly applies. The following comes from notes at the landing on a virtual world grid simply called "STEAM" It's FAB! =-=-=-=-==-=-=-=-=--=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- ================== ~ Welcome Traveler ~ ================== I am Vbinnia Radek, and you have arrived on the region Steam. To the North lies Steam Sea, and South, Steam Docks. To the east lie Hammer and Rivet, also Anvil which is empty and under water . Can you tell I'm attracted to steampunk? :) The latter three are very unfinished at this moment in time, but please look around. Have a prod and poke at things, don't just cam around, as a an awful lot of things you have to explore to find, also some things actually work, Increase your view distance up to 256m or 512m if you can, I have a lot of stuff high up in the sky especially in Rivet region and Seam Sea. You will find THREE Emporia spread about in the regions with free boxed and loose things, however a lot of things here are copyable, If you don't explore all the regions you won't find those. It is not safe to go on the creators name of anything, it can be altered for many reasons. I try to name the creator if I know who they are. My own creations are dotted all over the place and will have boxes that say, 'Vbinnia's (something)' and have file names beginning with 'Vbinnia, Vb, or vb', and should, on the whole, be full perms. ============== Do's and Dont's ============== Ask Questions, it's the only way we learn. OPENSIM and Specifically OSGrid IS NOT SECOND LIFE so don't treat it like it is! Your blunders may loose you potential new friends very quickly. We were all noobs once so by all means ask questions, I don't know anyone that refuse and answer here? USE A SANDBOX TO TRY OUT VEHICLES, it's what they are for. Due to my warnings being repeatedly ignored regarding trying out vehicles and crossing region boundaries, I have had to block rezzing anything to stop abuse and just plain noob silliness in these regions. My apologies to those with a modicum of common sense for this move. I can always turn back on temporarily if asked properly for a good reason. Even though you can see yourself it doesn't always mean that others can also see you, they may be looking at a cloud; so don't be offended if asked to rebake. I have Xbake enabled in these regions so hopefully this won't be such a problem, or less of one, as time goes on. I don't use voice. See other Notecard 'Virtuals Worlds Most Stupid Question'. I could write a book on why I don't, so please accept the situation. Don't offer friendship for the sake of it. I cull my friends list periodically to keep the dross down. Any box without my name was not created by me. Others work may not be full perm, unless that was the intent? In reality I can't stop anyone , but all I ask is please do not attempt to sell any of MY creations; modify or pass them on by all means, pointing people back here would be a nice gesture. ===================================================== Some suggested viewer settings to get the most out of your visit. ===================================================== Don't expect OSGrid to be SecondLife. It's a test grid for Opensim not a normal production grid, things can change very frequently for better or for worse. I also run these regions from my own server on an old PC in my home, so don't expect SL server performance either. What you experience will obviously be affected by your own connection speed, hardware, and viewer capabilities, and whether you pick your nose or scratch your bottom etc.,, but in general apply to everything not just here. If you experience a lot of lag, try the following: Turnoff Advanced Lighting in the viewer Graphics - Advanced Preferences. I found that with Shadows enabled the frame rate is nearly halved on my own viewer And I have a very good graphics card and system! Also try turning down the draw distance until things move and load more smoothly. *** A word about Mesh Objects *** I produce quite a bit of mesh content theses days, so a mesh enabled viewer is needed to see them. You are not restricted to one particular viewer in Opensim worlds, look on the OSgrid website for recommended ones. http://www.osgrid.org/index.php/viewerconnect I personally use Singularity as I don't like the viewer 2 or 3 interface. Plus it is being worked on constantly by dev's that actually take Opensim into account! I set my Particle Count to a 'minimum' of 2048, lower and any particle effects can be a bit anemic. Some viewers default to the maximum which is a bit of overkill. Draw distance of 256 is a nice compromise, unless you are experiencing really bad lag, then the lower the better. With Ultra graphics setting you may have to drop the draw distance quite low or things will tend stutter a lot, at the time of writing running a GTX660 card on Linux Debian wheezy stable, depending on the time and tides and how much coal I can shovel into the boiler, I'm down to 128m at bad times with shadows enabled. YMMV! Object detail should be set to high or max or some sculpts and meshes can look like they are made with a child's building blocks, blobs, or piles of matchwood from a few metres away. ================================================================= What follows are personal views on stuff that you may very well disagree with ================================================================= If you are THAT worried about copyright or copying, you shouldn't really be be on OSGrid, stay in cosy SL. By it's nature OSGrid is a bit like the wild west, that's why I like it. and also why I never sell anything I make, prefering to give it away; no one can steal it then. If you are professional enough to run a business making virtual goods, you can probably make far more with less hassle than in virtual worlds. Copyright theft and theft in general are not morally right, but are facts of life, not just in virtual. If you produce 'anything' in RL, someone is capable of copying it or stealing it. The fact that you go though most of your life pocketing other peoples writing implements without a care in the world, and still have a home and contents to go home to, is testament to most peoples hypocrisy and or self denial when it comes to such things, plus the innate honesty of 99% of the worlds population. So I do find a lot of the constant bleating about it in virtual a bit wearisome at times; either live with it or go do somewhere else. I don't consider myself skilled at anything, I dabble at everything and find it all hard, from running my own Linux server (I have the dual effort of keeping up with Linux and virtual) and trying and teach myself to use Blender and Gimp properly; but what I do gain is freedom at a financial cost I can afford. To put things in perspective, NOT owning a region in SL pays for the server electricity, 120Mb broadband, and leaves cash to spare for some nice bits of hardware, it even leaves enough to donate a small regular amount to OSGrid every month. I may be old tech but using tower PC's makes things cheap and powerful. I do owe a lot to FOSS (Free and Open-Source Software) and do donate back financially when I can. I would urge anyone that is resident in OSGrid to donate money occasionally ( there is a big button on the OSGrid web page ) or even set up a standing order for what you think is appropriate ( I do ). Treating this place as some sort of divine right is a bit stupid, selfish, and very short sighted to say the least. Even if you are not a resident here or run a server as part of OSGrid, and only come here to plunder other peoples work, think how much you would be paying at 10L$ an item in SL or any other commercial grid and give something back once in a while. The development of the OSGrid server software benefits every Opensim world, even your standalone if you have one, so please think about this seriously. I started in Second Life in February 2008, then changed to Third Rock Grid two years later before setting up here on OSGrid mid 2012 running my own server., so I'm not exactly a freshly hatched noob, Over time I came to the conclusion that SL is just a money making machine that hypes up a product to excess and cares little for it's users. It's a closed echo system that makes it's money from renting server space, and moneterising every microscopic thing they can, regardless of the impression the advertising gives. SL is selling an illusion that doesn't even come close to elevated expectations. In comparison and contrary to the views of a lot of the, must make money brigade, OSGrid is a very honest place; it doesn't promise anything, it's only down to the the effort you are prepared to put in and what you can reasonably expect from it . In some respects SL also seems have no clue how to handle virtual in general. When I first went to SL it was a fun no holds barred warts and all experience, then it slowly got worse as the profit maximizing moved in along with a constant flow of business decisions that seemed hell bent on alienating just about everyone. With all that came some really offensive to me personally, moral minority imposed restraints, the legacy of which still echoes around virtual in general with people left being afraid of their own shadows, Now, occasional visits to SL are bit like wandering around a post apocalyptic desert stuffed full of hyper markets with enormous amounts of content but only a few isolated poseurs wandering about. The future is not closed grids, independent ones suffer from similar restraints as SL does, with restrictive TOS's or I'm the king of the castle outlook, etc.; but I have no idea what it will be eventually, or whether open or closed the whole thing will wither on the vine? In the mean time, Please! Please! Please! .......... Someone develop a viewer specifically for Opensim !!!! And if you do, please design a sensible user interface. After all this time I still can't handle viewer2/3 restrictions and baffling layout (Blender is joy to use in comparison) Hence my use of Singularity. The Opensim experience has cost me a lot in time and effort (and still is) to get my place to the state it's in here. Not money! a lot of that is is locked up in my inventory in SL. I ask you? What other business in the world, would be allowed to sell a product in a store, then when you try to leave by the door say, "You can only use that in the store, you can't take it home." The urge to kill someone would be overwhelming! Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by the effort of it all, I'm not young or particularly clever or intelligent, have no background in IT or have any artistic talent, all I know is self taught the hard way (usually after days of Googling and still being completely baffled?). But for now I can do what I like, in any way I like, and what's my inventory stays mine., ***and that is priceless***. Vbinnia Radek Airship Pirate Extraordinaire Last edited March 2014 P.S. The real me lives in the UK. I can always be contacted on Vbinnia@gmail.com Please don't ask that most stupid question in the universe! "Are you a man or woman in real life?" Why shouldn't you ask? A) If the person behind screen is female, she will almost certainly feel offended that you are questioning her gender. B) If the person behind screen is male, he can lie and say female; so you will be none the wiser. C) If the person behind screen is female or male, they will probably label you as male homophobic! Why else would you place such importance on that lame question? D) If the person behind screen is female or male they may also regard you as a bit of an idiot for not engaging your brain before hitting the keyboard; if they happen to used a horse, robot or dragon as an avatar, would you ask the same question? In real life, people that are sure of who they are, don't need to ask that question. Everyone is curious, I count my self in that group, but most of us have the common grace to reserve judgment until the person concerned decides to provide enlightenment, or not, as the case may be. In virtual worlds, meeting a stranger is no different from meeting one in real life, except that it RL you will be acutely aware of of your faux pas if you ask the wrong questions. Here in virtual, hiding behind a screen doesn't give you carte blanche to be offensive to others; infact by it's nature it requires a certain amount of tolerance and open mindedness to enjoy it at all; that in some ways makes it slightly better than RL in that anyone can, be, anything! So show some respect to other human beings whilst you are here. There is another type of person, scared to death they might be what they protest loudly to be wrong with others. Those I don't want anything to do with. People who never look inside themselves with honesty and can't accept others as they are, not how they want them to be, can be extremely dangerous. Vbinnia Radek

Paying it Forward.... is happening... for real. Really?

Wow, Erykah.... What a day, What a day! (and this was in my drafts, so I lost track.) First, an annoyance and I stood a little ground. Results happened....after much ado....and I was calm, cool and collected. I gave a little lecture about how I won't be bullied by someone who should know better. Someone tried to accuse me of that in Fargo and no, I didn't want to stay in Fargo, I wanted to GO, FAR, FAR, AWAY, the sooner the better. I was a good 3/4 dead when I got here and I'm still exhausted, in a good way?....for the first time in my 20-28 years as far as I know, this time around. You can call it literal, or embrace the fact we completely rejuvenate every 7 years, or whatever the kewl kids are saying these days. The metric system was meant for simple calculations so that all the math you need would be easily counted on your fingers and toes. I forgot how I learned the abacus but when dad showed me how to use the joints on my hand to count in base 10. I forgot how much it resembles playing a musical instrument. Recently I caught myself at it while thinking about how to journal today, er yesterday. If I were to guess, the wobble and February finally turned the world right side up and true north is where it's supposed to be? We talked about it long ago in chat when AOL lost its mission. I've spent my entire life learning and educating and I am not alone by a very long shot. The greater good has not been served, and I kept missing the parties at ground zero. Then I turned to my usual art therapy. Go look at something prettiful. The Celestine Prophecy was common sense to me, but everyone isn't aware of it. It's easy to find beauty or make it where you can. Where the FDA has failed miserably, betrayed the national trust, we have been left to our own devices in order to heal ourselves and each other. ============================== I'd left my avatar online in a lovely FLW-style home. It was rather like the one we visited in J.A. the first time I remember answering "42" after eating too much of that good fruit growing along the railing. I ate to much and there was hell paid in full. I was yelled at for using a whole roll of toilet paper. and there was other stuff I meant to add, but forgot....again. I'm torn in a million different directions. But the answer to how I can help myself and live in peace remains, a catch 22. "I don't know what to tell ya" Well, I simply don't know where I belong anymore. I needed to catch up on "real life" stuff. I'm getting better all the time, but leave it to the weak and fearful to try and break my stride again. ===================== So, a lovely gift of 9 regions, had a ship bearing two flags. Let me guess... The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen? Yeah, I loved steam punk and yes, we understood they were lowering the bar on comfort and quality for ages....as soon as they realized the only real difference between human beings is between the ears and culture has everything to do with how we are raised. You can't buy me love or tell me how, when or whom to love. What I have in abundance, is not for sale, but nobody really appreciates anything they get for free. Barter is awesome because we usually get more than we expected. Pobody's Nerfect amen

Party at Ground Zero - Fishbone - Fishbone EP (HD)

Glory Adora don't spit on the floor,

Use the cuspidor, like the one before.

....or something like that.  I had an extremely awesome grandad who used one in Kansas, so it was nothing new to me.

Chewing tobacco rotted the teeth and we learned about that at the Tut exhibit.

Some
cop took blood against my complaints and diagnosed me as stressed out,
while I had a dental issue because my white blood count was high.....as
if he were a doctor.  I told him I'd been drinking too much water and I
was alright, but he INSISTED that was impossible.  It was the same
summer the woman died after a radio show contest and the moron punished
me because he didn't know about it.

They had a nefarious plot against
NDN country I've long since figured out and never quit working.  I was
scouting the area while trying to recover from layoffs.  The realtors
refused to even SHOW my house.  tsk tsk tsk....that's a Bozo no-no! 
Since they didn't bother helping me, I leased the house and they trashed
me while I was gone and they stopped payment.  Yeah, I still have the
paperwork but yeah, bigots SUCK! 

There is something deeply wrong
with those people and I believe the jig is absolutely up....  yes, they
cheated, cheated and cheated. 

Honestly, who in the DC area didn't relate to this song?

BTW, Ive always had to think like a pirate and I have a really big thumb!